-ws-

i’m already a 2nd year student, for 2 more months, i will turn into a 3rd year student d, life walks past us very quickly when we are busy doing smtg or have smtg in mind that keep us alert all the time, for the last sem, since i already retired from Pkc exco and staying outside Uniten ady, life has been very fun at times, and may be lonely and bored sometimes. fun because i have many wonderful and caring housemates that spend time doing crazy stuff, lonely and bored is suddenly don’t know come from where, it is as thou something is missing from my life and i can’t identify it. life without joining as a committe member of a society (althou got join smaller event) can be very very free until studies can be delay delay a little bit compared to last time, can have a better concentration on studies and a care-free life, almost everyday play computer games(dotA and facebook nonstop =P). study study: an everyday must do event, because the things to understand are getting tougher and difficult to explain sometimes, one day didn’t touch book is as thou u are slower than other ppl d,

recently, there is smtg bothering my mind alot, [warning: u may not understand this part, too complex], sometimes, when u thought u have done nothing wrong, but other ppl like suddenly boikot u, u try very very hard to trace back what u have done, but the mind ady access deny, so long d how 2 trace bek, wan to ask the ppl what’s wrong, but don dare oso, coz scared it will lead to more misunderstanding, so for shy ppl like me, it’s like: a chicken in a pasar walking walking.. suddenly got a huge parang chop away ur head, u die without knowing the truth, who chop u lah, how fast he chop u ah, what brand of the parang, blablabla.. ~

my blog above is very messy, hope those who read it won’t sesat half way ^^

the next special sem is coming right up, yippix =)))… hopefully it will be a relaxing and enjoyable sem, hopefully i can follow what i plan to do also, wishing those who wont take special sem, happY holidayzz ^^, those doing industrial training 1, perserve and stay strong and those who taking special sem 1, see you sooon ~

time passes in the twinkle of an eye, i feel as if i have just entered uniten which happened almost two years back. 3 months of holiday, seems like heaven to most of the people, i’m excluded from that kind of thinking.  how 2 say it? i miss university life gua, being able to stay together with friends, endless of dota-ing, crapping nonsense, enjoy outside, it almost became bread and butter of my life. now, given that long holiday, i think my life going to become dull for a moment, maybe i should hibernate at my house lor, hehe..

what grade should i give myself for this sem? it would be below average grade, most of the time, i don’t know what i’m doing in uniten, my mind doesn’t recall much of happy, pride and glory happenings, i feel that i just woke up from a dream! most of my friends that know me, sometimes they will mentioned that i’m quite blur, which is quite true. my little brain easy to go wonder, daydream whenever i got nothing to do, so i tend to forget about things and my past.

study performance has been very bad for me this sem, most of the classes i didn’t plan to listen to the lecturer, i don’t know why, but when they started teaching, it sometimes pissed me off abit, maybe the syllabus getting tougher and at the same time i don’t know what they are teaching, i feel quite depressed and pressure. many people said, don’t give urself too high of pressure in studies, if not, it would turn out to be disastrous. however, i can’t change the habit, whenever exams are near, i push myself to the limits, and how? sometimes the results are good, but those less marks one will make me deeply disappointed. my way actually making myself tired and worn-out, i’m really tired…

everyone was asking here and there, "what cha goin’ to do for da 3 months holiday? "
work? yeah, i’m looking forward to go out and work as part timer, i never have any experience of working, last time, all i did was camping inside my lovely house. but there are things to do as well in pkc, so my holiday won’t be so "easy" to pass gua, hehe.

two days ago, 7 of us, jiashen, chongheng, shengji, weizeng, inklerk, ahpang and me went to genting, woohoo! it was really suprising that they suddenly panned to go there, haha, i wasn’t sure whether to go, but finally i decided to join them as if i didn’t follow, i will be alone in the apartment for a long time.. everyone was energetic and fresh with the idea, so we started our journey up lo, our 2 brave drivers drove their cars up until the cable car station, and then everyone was crazy and the fun begun. however this raining season made us quite sien though, outdoor theme park keep closing. 7 of us squeezes in  a deluxe room,  watched "the three kingdom" , saw "chou hua jian" at genting promoting his concert, ate kfc twice, and lepak most the time, hehe..

i enjoy this whole sem a lot although i don’t have much vivid memory of it, enjoy your life to the fullest, as you never know what’s going to happen tomorrow. there is some people i wish to apologies also, as i know i hurt them indirectly, hope u all will understand me ya, and thx to jiashen, yeh lun, and cheongy for being my good housemates! Enjoy your holiday ^_^

                 "St.David’s High School,

                  Truth and honour we shall know.

                  St.David’s High School,

                  Loyalty we always show.

                  We strike with all our might,

                  to uphold her find good name.

                  Do or die we try,

                  Never give up with a sign.

                  For we are,

                  Saint David - ian - s "

my school anthem, remained vividly in my mind, when i made a trip to my beloved old school 2day. i was there to collect my spm cert with has been out long time ago, only that i’m lazy to collect it.. >.<

my principal had changed into a new one, mr.chay, a strong person which is related to catholic church. he was the GPK(guru penolong kanan) in this school before, but was transferred out to other school. i was surprised to see him 2day because i didn’t know he came to this school. he is a kind man and still recognize my face (although ugly alot liao), and i took the chance to talk with a few teachers. all asking the same questions, zzzzzz, u study where? wad course? got schorlarship? which son in the family ah and …… aiyoyo, repeated a few times the same answers, hehe, but they were excited to see me (=P, eleh, i was excited oso la…)

out of the holidays, i felt that 2day was the meaningful to me one because i din really go out and enjoy even though CNY, mayb bcause i was abit anti-social gua.. nobody dares to approach me.. sad.. everyday was facing the computer and doing a little of revision..

tmr, a special day for alot ppl, but not me.. however, wishing every couple, gambate and take care of ur loved ones

It has been a long since I last posted my previous blog. Have
I gotten busy recently? Hmm, cant say so actually no matter how busy a person
is, there will still be some free time for him, whether he can “see” the free
time. Guess I became quiet lazy ady lor..

Duno why I feel quiet emotionally 2day, everything that I do,
my mood is not there, as if my soul was taken away from where I belong. I’m not
in mood to talk to people, din complete my assignment and din have a nice meal.
Very sory 2 everyone if I got hurt you in any way.

What happened to me? I want to know it as well, talk about
my studies, my exam, society activities and so on… everything is moving
smoothly for me, what is more that I want? I’m seeking for an answer, which I cant
possible know it..

A dream,

A dream of you, in a world without you…

Maybe something is missing from my life gua, I will need  2 find it a.s.a.p…

Late d, but I din feel sleepy… jia you la… me, myself and i…

haha..yday nite, my dad saw me a piece of paper which really made me embarassed lah, it was a small piece of 8cm x 8cm piece of paper..

it was a little ‘promise’ i made to my parents, and i duno how did i learn the word "Agreement"..bcos i wrote it there myself (muz have kena tipu to write during my childhood days when i still stupid stupid la, hehe).. the Agreement was wrote when i was 10yrs at 20th April.. duno wad happened that led to this..

"i, tan wei sheng, after i have grown up, muz listen to parents, hair canot keep long, canot longer than 8cm, canot comb center parting(some kind of hair style), no smoking, no alcohol, canot fight with my parents" signed.. 20/4/98

haha, it was written in chinese, and i look bek at my handwriting, it was quite ‘cute’ la..miss my childhood days…

finally i’m back to my hometown to enjoy the raya week break, can’t say "enjoy" also actually as finals are coming right up, hehe. So gonna spam a few lines of words in this blog before beginning the hardwork and to be in study mood d..

12-13 Oct : i went to a wonderful trip of 80 ppl including all the organizing committee and the respected monk(duno how to spell his name in chinese ah, sowie), hehe..v went 2 jungle tracking which was the highlight of this trip. the journey was quite tough and challenging, lots of tree roots, slippery pathway and "unlimited and abushing party" of leeches..haha, i think it’s 1st time in my life i encountered leeches, before that, i always hear other ppl sharing their experience, and now, i got the chance 2 c it with my own eyes lah..i thought it was an earthworm or ‘cacing’ at the 1st sight, but the way it walks really scary..they were like an army, ready to attack any1 who get close to them..

the absailing part was diffucult actually, really different from the one that i played during the pkc training camp..i still rmb the pkc 1, v jz climb down from a smooth surface..but this time, v climbed down from a waterfall ah..of coz, one can easily imagine that there will be big n rough rocks n ever cool and refreshing water splashing down..that day duno whether i not on-form or sleepy or wad, not really ready 4 the absailing..in the end, i slipped when climbing down and knocked hard on the rocks, my hands were bleeding immediately after that, i tried 2 put my hands in the cold water to stop bleeding but oso no can do..my feelings that time was damn sad lor, both my hands feel kinda ‘cacat’, cant really move them..hav to climb back to the top of the waterfall to find first-aid-kit, aih..but really thanks 2 chia nee, jeffery, pei ling, jun hong, n kai sien (correct name anot ah?) who help me with the wound ah, feel quite ‘wen xin’ when u all attend to my injury.. actually not wad big deal oso la, just feel quite sien when i can onli watch other ppl enjoying themselves splashing in the water while i cant, hehe..

and 1 more thing ah..aiya, add another case into my account ady..i think this is the 3rd time i did something wrong to other ppl’s spectacle..sorry ya, i din notice u were there and i swing my hand to hard ady to splash water..now ur specs going to flow into the big ocean d, hope it’s useful to the fishes there who have short-sighted ar..paiseh ah…

hmm..think that’s all i gonna say..

and hey ws, jia you la..got urself a position in pkc ady, head of drama team wo..everyone in the board, gambate la, make pkc a better place for everyone in uniten !..

Nitez..

Midnite is now and I dun feel a single sign of tired.. that’s y use this place to fa xie awhile la and I’m bek 2 melaka for 3days, yeah.. a lot things I nid to settle right now loh, like my uniten fees, aih, what ah ptptn, dun wan to approve me, if I din pay then next sem dun nid see me loo(hope no ppl shouted, “ Yeah” la)..come bek home to take cheque from FAMA 1^st.. hope nobody rob me when I’m bek to uniten ah, hehe..

everyday in my life now, is just book, book, and book..the moment I step inside my room, book..finish my bathe ady, book, finish makan, book.. even if I’m on9-ing, my book do not fail to “teman” me.. haha.. wah, feel abit suffocation right now loh, I nid a holiday very soon ah..abit wan to faint ady..luckily still got play some dotA with my frends recently, wan to pawn ppl ‘gao gao’ah..haha..sory to u all..later I make u all more stressful, even if I lose, I still very happy de wor, coz it’s played among us..

my statics test jz over yday, noth’ big problem for me this time gua.. still wondering when my ah tao wan to start building our Great Super Exellent “mou tak teng” bridge ler..haha.. abit worry ahh..during the test my lecturer damn funny lo..tell u all a story..

‘she was keep walking ard our area while she have 4 sections to look after la. But hor, she got 1 habit, like to check ppl answer n onli tell them if it’s wrong. Then got two gals in front of me, one got correct answer, one din noe how to do.. oh man, my lecturer ask the gal who got correct 1 to show to the other person how the ‘free body diagram’ shd look like, teach her how to hold the paper “sengek” tim.. haha..of coz 2 of them r frends la, can ‘sha sha de xiao at her’..

then got another is that she keep telling a guy that his answer is wrong ady loh.. ngam ngam I was sitting near too, then she came to me, look at my answer, then walk bek and tell the guy he get the same answer as me.. wad ah u..’

many ppl r facing tests nowadays, so ah, I will wish everyone Happy Test Day ah, aiya, test is just a test ma.. dun make urself until too pressure k? later lie down at hospital even worse.. and do whatever u can in the test, do ‘til

ur

last breath k? haha.. of coz din ask u all to go die la, I not so shui de.. jz put in

ur

best effort ya..

Jia you n Gambateh <^oo^>

hehe..i can read from everyone’s expression saying that Traning Camp ‘07 is the best, special, succesful, and so on..

yupz..i’m one of them that r going to say the same things..but there is something different that i get from this camp, and that’s i’m going to appreciate my life more than ever..

most of the participants who went thru the camp shd hav came across a scene who i did the daredevil stunt, trying to cross a gap or a big hole by a mere tree trunk..

who had gone thru my mind at the time, i cant rmb that well, i just know everyth’ will be safe ah in this camp, nothing much to worry.. the instructor jz walked past the trunk like nth would happen..so i decided to try it, the first participant tim..

at that time, my hand was holding a long stick, i thought i can be as genius as those from circus ma, so jz move on..the first few steps were nth, it was easy..but…

on the half way, there was a decayed tree branch strecthing out of the tree trunk, blocking the way..i tried to evade it to continue my walk..but then, i realise the tree trunk was shaking slowly..my legs no longer balanced and started to tremble too..

‘ dEatH ‘

this word came across my mind at that time, but i don’t have the time to elaborate the meaning..i was thinking how to survive at the moment..several important person in my life entered my mind too, i was thinking very negatively - who are suppose to inform them if i was a goner..

first time in my life, i was jz like a hopeless cat, hanging on top of a tree, waiting for firemen to save me..but the situation is different, i’m not a cat, i didn’t want any else to come here to risk their lives to save me..

luckily i knew how to sit down at that time, science ma, lower your center of gravity to get balance, hehe..use my ‘pi gu’ muscle to ‘crawl’ back to the mainland..i would like to apologies to those who worried me at that time..i knew it’s not a game..

after that incident, the whole thing jz slipped away from my mind..’i really didn’t think of the aftermath of it..the last day of the camp, chin leng pointed at me, yeaw nian n alvin..that moment, i only started to rethink about the situation..

human lives are fragile, they can be easily destroyed and ended..it’s up to us to know its own value, its true value..there are many people out there acknowledge you..even how bad your human relationship is, there is and there must be one person out there who always care for you.. Cherish it!

mum dad…
thank you very much,
i feel so gan dong after hearing both of u all voice…
i think im not a very good son to u all…
i onli know how to call back when i feel lonely,
that time onli i can think of u all…
ur voice r ever so calm, peaceful, priceless…
my tears fell down immediately after the call,
i couldnt stop it…
i dunno why…
my heart like wanna explode….
i realised that i din treat u all that good,
now after the freshie camp d…
i hope i can get back to my normal life…

love u two… looking 4ward to seeing u next week

feel nice after crying…’long’ time din happen d…

2nd year in uniten, the ppl that i know are getting more, ppl who wished me are more and friendly compared to last time when i was in foundation when everyone still din know each other that well.

How was this year bday?
Wad can i say ah?
Wanna say simple? Cannot; wana say very grand? oso cannot…
Onli these words can describe la, special, meaningful and memorable…

Hehe, really thanks alot to those ppl who flooded my hp with msg la, althou some jz short short a word, but still very pleasant feelings to me, at least u know me, hehe.

Some msg of course are different la, especially those got abit graphic (correct word anot?) der, i will keep it… SO that u dun send the same one to me every year la… haha, joking… bcoz it’s nice, dunno when i hav the chance to see it again wor…

And friendster too, really alot happy bday comments for me, abit terkejut receive so many in a day, haha, never tested b4 oso… Tuo je lei dei ah

Got one group of frends i must say really thanks alot for the cake ah, really pai seh let u all go find me in the dark, haha… I’m the one cycling la, im not ghost wor, dun nid sked follow me to coit, hehe… And ah, i’m not sengaja to hide and let u all disappointed coz i din come ah, ah jhun asked me one… hehe… but thanks for wad ever u all planned for me… Pls help me finish the cake in the fridge wor…

And to one gal who can’t find her name in here, hehe… now wanna say abt u la, Yee Mun… haha…ask me go cycle in the dark ah, i nid to smile to the amanah pak cik before i go off, wanna giv him good impression of me 1st, hehe…

Luckily that night i reached on time wor, althou sweat abit, but dun care about that la, can see you is enough d loh, this year, thanks for being by my side to be the one who wished me happy bday ya… Althou we din countdown for it, but it’s okla, v din bring one clock oso wor…haha…bc chatting din choi the time d. And ah, dun ask me whether i like ur present anot, ur choice alwiz suit my taste la…
I like your present, thanks.
Althou nid to DIY abit, but the "hard" work not wasted la, u still keep the battery wor, wanna trick me leh… naughty gal…
At nite althou no chance to spent the last hour with u, but that "incident", i think it’s more worth it now rite? makes our und better abit…
Thank you, Mun Mun.

Freshie camp coming rite up, giv me some courage…